Monday, June 2, 2008
A Funny Thing Happened Today
I wore glasses all my life. That is until I was going through my divorce. I decided I needed change...as if I didn't already have enough changes taking place. So I got contacts. When you have seen yourself in glasses everyday of your life since you were 11 years old it takes getting used to seeing your face without them. Since then I have only worn my glasses when my eyes are tired or when I first wake up in the morning. Well, this morning I dropped my right contact and even though I looked and looked I couldn't spot it anywhere. My left and right prescriptions are different and I only had one of the left contacts extra. That meant I had to wear my glasses to work today.
No one seemed to notice until the day was half over. But I did. Everytime I went to the restroom and saw my reflection in the mirror I was reminded of the way I used to feel....not look, but how I used to feel. Not confident or assertive or upbeat. My eyes were downcast and my head was bent. I felt subservient and depressed. That is how I felt most of my married life. What a revelation. Thank goodness my eye appointment was already scheduled for tomorrow afternoon.
So how about you? Have you ever found yourself looking squarely into your past and not liking what you saw?